“Imagine watching all that God might have done with your life if you had let him.” This statement by John Ortberg made me stop and pause. How would I handle it if I went to heaven and watched a video of all that my life COULD have been had I only completely trusted in God and let Him have complete control? I know there will be no pain or sorrow in heaven so the chances of this happening are slim because those would be painful episodes to watch. But…it does make me think.
I have been accused, rightfully so, of being a control freak. What might my life be like if I would learn to release? If I would walk forward into the great unknown minus fear? It would be foolish to walk into the unknown if it was just me…me walking just to walk. However, if I’m walking into the unknown with the One who does know it is then that I can walk without fear. You see, there is one thing that I know in my head that I just have to get into my heart as well. I serve a great God. A God that is filled with an undying love for me. He is not the type of God who is an evil dictator who relishes in bringing his subjects pain. He is a loving God who always has my best in mind.
I do not doubt the fact that because of what Christ did on the cross that I am saved and that I will someday spend eternity with Him. If I can trust Him with my eternity, why then do I have problems trusting Him with my daily life? As I am on this journey, I feel His tug on my heart and soul to release and walk with Him. I know that when I’m at the end of myself and take the plunge to fully walk hand in hand with Him that it is then that I will truly live. Why do I waste another day and not trust Him completely? May I jump in with both feet and trust that my Savior is there to walk with me through the greatest adventure ever.
I think these lyrics from Matthew West’s song sums it up the best.
This might hurt, it’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care if I break,
At least I’ll be feeling something
‘Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life
I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,
“What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?”
No regrets, not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I’m finally feeling something
‘Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life
‘Cause I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,
“What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?”
My prayer is that at the end of my life that from this day forward that I will be that girl who said, “Yes,” to God…without exception!!
